2010: New Year, New Mandy

Here we are, a new year and a new decade and if you are a conspiracy theorist...only two years left of Mayan calender and two years away from THE APOCALYPSE! :P

I started this blog on January 1, 2007, and every year since I have listed the things that I want to accomplish for the upcoming year. Some things, I've accomplished and others I've let go of by the second week of January. I want to become a better person. I want to let go of things that I haven't been able to let go of in the past. I want to be able to appreciate the things I have and not dwell on the things I don't.

So, with that being said, here's my list of New Year's making Mandy better...

1. Lose weight - This is on the list every year. And, this is one of the things that I always give up on after a couple of weeks. Here's the problem, I LOVE FOOD! Seriously, food makes me happy. I think I have always used food as something to fill whatever void I have in my life at the time. I have to change my mindset. I can't keep looking at food as a crutch to get me through life's little hiccups. Also, my friend Latischia got engaged over the Christmas holiday and she asked me to be her Maid of Honor. And not to sound cheesy, but I do feel honored. I have done research on what my duties include...and wow, there are a lot. I have added one to my list and that is to lose weight before I have to stand next to her in a bridesmaid dress. I don't want look like Violet Beauregarde in all of her wedding pictures. Her wedding is in October, so I figure if I can lose 5 lbs. per month, that will be a total loss of 50 lbs by her wedding. I think this is a reasonable and attainable goal. When I'm done with this post, I will go directly to the Weight Watchers website and find a meeting close to my home. Weight Watchers has always worked in the past, so why not try it again!

2. Get back to church - In 2008, I was going to church regularly, and you know what, I felt better. And, I figure if the Apocalypse is coming in 2012 I probably need to get right with Jesus. (I'm kidding, I don't really believe the world is going to come to an end in 2012.)

3. Be patient - This is a big one for me. I'm one of the most impatient people in the world. I think that's probably why weight loss irritates me so much...if weight doesn't just fall off me, then I'm like, "Fuck it, it's not working." I've been working on the whole "patience is a virtue" thing and slowly but surely I think I'm starting to relax and accept that things will happen I just have to give them time. I was talking to Terra yesterday, and she was telling me about some issues she was having with her boyfriend and I told her that she and I both need to exercise a little patience, that things will happen when they are supposed to happen and that we both need to recognize the little things that our guys do, because the little things add up to bigger things. I've started to step back and take notice of the little things that The Guy does, things that he does not because he has to, but because he wants to. The relationship with The Guy is progressing, but slowly. And, when we first started seeing each other, I was impatient and over-analyzed our situation to the point of driving myself insane. Recently, I've looked at relationships the way you're supposed to look at weight loss...The slower you take it off, the longer it stays off, or if you're talking relationships, the slower you take it, the longer and happier the relationship will be.

I'm tired of rushing through life, maybe this year I'll step back and take a look around...you never know, I might just like it.

Until next time...

Mandy